Thursday, June 3, 2010

Potential Opportunities Come With Increased Anxiety

So! I am keeping my fingers crossed over and over and over again for this single opportunity. What is this opportunity you speak of, Jean? Well, let me jolly well tell you! I MIGHT get an internship at the Beverly Hills Hotel. Yes! It is exciting news and I am so greatful for even having the chance at it. The only difficult thing is no matter how hard I try to stay positive my insecurities have been taking over a lot of my thought processes lately, especially because this is something i deeply care about. I am afraid I am going to disappoint those I am working under. I am afraid to make a mistake. I am afraid of failure. I know, we learn through our failures, but failure is one thing I just cannot stand! It haunts me like an overbearing stalker that refuses to disappear even with a restraining order. I am so disturbed to the point that I question if every little action I do will disappoint or offend my potential boss. It is actually become quite stressful as it is silly. I need to man up and take the God forsake bull by his horns and tame the beast like a domestic puppy dog. Please wish me luck!

On the more amusing side of things, I noticed that it was just my luck in which I sent an email to the chef and spelled his name incorrectly. I butchered the man's name with confidence. FML! Good thing he was a good sport about it.

Quote of the day @ school.
Chef: Can someone man this? (referring to stirring a pot of heavy cream that is being heated)
Brit: or WOMAN it.

2 comments:

  1. I had a humbling experience just this past year, Jean. I was banking my entire next year plan on getting this unbelievably competitive scholarship to pay for a program that was also incredibly difficult to get in. No surprise I didn't get either and now I'm stuck apartment searching at the last minute, scrambling for loans, revising my plans.

    I found instead that I'm a good position to get instead a huge language scholarship for study here instead for the next year, which I find is better cos I can be with friends, take a variety of classes etc. So it's all part of the Plan. :)

    Good luck Jean! You'll do fine no matter what happens!

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  2. Brent! Thank you! That was very encouraging! I wish you the best of luck and I will keep my fingers crossed hoping you get the language scholarship. Stay positive! that's one thing I've learned in my journey thus far! THANKS! Ill keep yall up and posted on my days to come regarding the internship.

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